Amped!

It's weird but all my life I've had these moments that I get this excited, manic feeling of anticipation. Like there is something really good impending, even when there's not. It's a jazzy feeling in the brain and butterflies in the stomach and kind of a tinglely feeling in your hands. But all in a good way. It's like the feeling you get when you find out your crush likes you back, or when you are picking up a good friend you haven't seen in forever at the airport---or the night before Christmas or a trip you've been looking forward to for a long time. I've felt like this right before I go on stage too.

I having this feeling now. I don't mind it so much, but it's weird knowing that there is no pay off, and so no reason for it. I don't know what causes me to feel like this. I'm not a coffe drinker but today that may have something to do with it. I picked up a "diesel fuel" on the way to work this morning that I've been nursing through the day. That's a concotion a little local coffee shop in town makes---three shots of expresso poured into a 16 oz coffee. Dude, that's like A.D.D. in a styrofoam cup. And I had a 20 Pepsi with lunch (but it did have a winning song cap!). Yeah, I'm doing some serious multi-tasking right about now.

But that's not always the case when I get to feeling like this---so I can't just dismiss it as a simple caffine buzz. It's kind of like the complete opposite to an axiety attack. My wife gets those. I wish I could put what I'm feeling right now into a pill she could take when the dark clouds move in. I hate it when she get's beat down like that.

I'm know I'm scheduled for a crash at some point---I just hope it's gentle with me.